not so vague. it is what it is. grace happens. Grace happens.

i wanted to play video games she said. sure, we can do that, he said. i wanna actually beat you at least once, she said. i have a really cute movie, he said.

once. a movie that one of my best friends told me to watch. come back to california, vietnamese girl. a movie that my friend in japan told me i HAVE to watch. and ironically, the "really cute movie," my friend had in his dvd player.

once. amazing music - beautiful lyrics that make me want to cry and be depressed...ew, no way. yeah right. i'm a sucker for this stuff. amazing music, regardless...lyrics that cut through the heart and allowed you to feel, if you've been there. intimacy. a reminder. we all want a little bit of it. sometimes, others want a whole lot of it. you gotta control it though. this is a instance [moment] where you are reminded of the definition of intimacy.

and.... just like that. follow your heart, and your mind, and you are set. go. leave. drive home, 2am, streets are empty, sleep is short, delirium on the way to work. 4 hours of sleep. of course i have to be at work early. research calls. game face on. remember? you have a client meeting. love it. oops. at least there's bagels.

know yourself, know what you need, know what you deserve, know that your standards are so high, that nothing else matters - everything else is non-existent. most importantly, don't waste your time, or your sleep.

success and redemption. i think i passed the first test. it wasn't [isn't] too late. walk on wilshire. i need a vacation. with emily, lauren, alice, and gina. i don't know an emily, lauren, or alice...but i do know a gina. XX.

** sooo i had originally posted other stuff here, but due to the fact that some things really did not need to be said, what you see is what you get. have questions? ask. don't speculate. this post, UGH, so much is missing. just ask.