wrapped in familiarity.

erase, start again, erase, start again, and what you have, is well, what you have. no matter what you write, no matter what happened this weekend - here it is. you never know what a weekend will bring you, or what new developments will take place.

it's always a toss up. she asked, what's the latest? i told her. she got a little confused. confused. good word, but totally unnecessary. how is it progress has been made, but anti-progress goes on at the same time? well, i suppose that is part of the game of life and the risks that one is willing to take. see where it takes you. of course, history continues to repeat itself. we'll see what happens. as we got ready last night to go play in hollywood, she said, wow, i can't believe this whole situation - or something along those lines...i agreed. status, however, has not changed. or has it? my friend tends to disagree.

we danced in the club. hard. we needed to burn some/a lot of calories. he said, hey, does she have a boyfriend? she asked me, hey do you have a boyfriend? quick, quick, give an answer! ...and that was that.

those moments of definition - the black and white - the yes or no - the yes and no - the blatant response i made to a text message by saying..."sorry, i just don't have time for this"... the upset response and clear indication of FINE...in the simple response - "K." you get what you give, especially when you are that vague. we help each other out when homie does not get the hint that he needs to ask for her number. we also help each other out when we just need a good talk.

after a good three a half hour nap today to make up for sleeping at 3am and waking up at 8am, i learned to roll away the stone and give myself a break. give others a break. to understand that sometimes i am way too hard on myself. that sometimes i may be too hard on other people. g and j gave away their shoes at church today. sacrifice. roll away the stone. love is sacrificing. and understanding. who was lazarus really? does it even matter? this has been a great lent, possibly because i have been able to reflect on the past - what has been and what i have allowed myself to endure. now i know, and now i continue.

my friend said to forgive. he didn't say the other part though. that's ok. my heart is no longer angry. clearly. it's ok cause i gotta live life. i mean, hey it's good. impeccable timing. no more angry blogs. i'm young. make bad decisions. and THAT is how the sun shines today.