welcome to the world of uncertainty she said. i sat down in my cube and let it all out. those six words summed it all up. tonight, we realized we were all in the same boat. some more than others. take us out of the butler apartment, place us in father's office, put some sweet potato fries in front of us, and recall this whirlwind of, wait, so what does this mean? how do i really feel about this? do i really like him? does he really know what he wants? i think he does. weird. is that possible?
this all consuming trend that we [i] have found in our past seven months of living here in LA has brought us to these conversations. to the conclusion that at least we all have each other? at least we're educated, we have awesome jobs, and we're just pretty awesome. thank goodness for resilience and for still maintaining control.
until you kinda put yourself out there for like .5 seconds, and then you get the save face conversation due to lack of sleep and having to wake up at 5am the next day. unacceptable. completely. i'll call you at 9am. YEAH. ok. thanks. the irony in significance of february 3rd is quite trippy and due to lack of desire to overanalyze this day in history, it is "quite interesting" to reflect on the significance it had on my life two years ago or so, and what will become of that day on sunday, 2008. who knew?
the change of heart is a funny thing. so is reflection. so is persistence and being pursued. so is the introduction of something that had once died from existence. so is the fact that i have become dangerously obsessed with celebrities and the LA lifestyle. so is the fact that this weekend, i'm gonna have my first real going out in san diego experience with my "friend from texas."
i don't know what this weekend will bring - i'm sure memories of my life as a college student will arise as i drive by that ivory tower...hanging out with the core [ no longer ], being an RA and being excited about life...but, this time, it's different...i'm not that student anymore. i've moved on. i'm not that girlfriend anymore. i'm long gone. i'm not that RA anymore. i've paid my dues and i've been paid. i'm now in my Pink jacket, in my favorite texan apartment, getting ready for a mini-vacay for the weekend. it's time to take san diego as it is. and prove that we are adaptable. i just don't know if they're ready for us.
get your camera ready gp - the ocean, the breeze, the bay is calling your name. san diego is gonna love you. cause i sure do! :)
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