more than fine

h.e.a.r.t.l.e.s.s

maybe? i think a little.

a birdie broke some news to me the other day. looks like my past is chasing after me. im RUNning LIKE HELL!

i wish i moved out here sooner. i wish i started this process earlier. but here i am. breathing. loving. living. turns out that nothing's real until you let go completely.

nothing is more relieving than affirmation. erasing the uncertainty. when the [what could have been] turns into [never would have worked]. when the [maybe] becomes a [hell no]. or (this the rarest of them all) when a [kinda sorta] develops into an [of course yes]. regardless of the outcome, knowing & being sure of it--it's the greatest gift of all. not scared. not scared at all. confirmation-think of it as the best christmas present you could have asked for, crys.

2 0 0 8. with nothing written in the books, there's so much to look forward to. just remember: if it's us against a crowd, there's something wrong with the crowd. LA is my city, and i refuse to let them take it away from me. CC, we're holding down the fort. DEFENSE *clap clap* DEFENSE!

this could break my heart or save me. but i'm ready to find out.

Thanks, kelly c. i owe you one.