all the world's a stage.

just shine. not worrying about what other people will think if you say that. not worrying about what other people will think if you do that. what if you just followed through with what you really wanted to do? just be. just be. just be. let's be honest. it's not easy pretending, so why even try - just go. be, go, do, think, and love the entire time.

one of the hardest things for me, i have learned, is to act like i am interested when i'm really not. it's pretty much really hot or really cold for me. i'm a really good actress i learned though, in terms of acting like i am interested in what is going on and what is being said, but, the difficulty comes from the inside. in my mind, i am just thinking, wow, seriously, crystal. you are not interested. stop wasting your time. you suck at this. however, in actuality, it comes off sometimes in the other person's favor, and in other times, unfortunately, it may come off as me being quiet or uninterested.

the best is when i am genuinely interested in what the other person has to say, and the next thing you know, your understanding of the truth that people really really really like to talk about themselves, makes itself even more apparent and real. when that happens, the interest level goes down. unattractive and no longer do my ears appreciate what is being flowed through its canals. very much so. move on. walk over to the one who knows how to present a smile well. preferably with good shoes. just maybe interest will increase once again. most likely not. worth a shot.

client meetings, bar scenes, random social hours, starting a conversation with someone you really just wanted to keep at a "hi" level....interested or not - it's time to really put into action and understanding that my view of others must continue to be supported and embedded with love and compassion for that person, as a child of God. of course, that is not easy. doable. not easy. try. everyday. everyday is practice. each person is special. what an opportunity. i must take advantage. no holding back. what an opportunity! a blessing. definitely.

people like to talk about themselves. girl's gotta vent. boy's gotta vent and let it out. right place, right time. for them. for you, gotta go? gotta stay. listen. i gotta face it. i end up in these situations because i love learning about people. i'm a big listener. i always have questions. i hope you don't mind. in speaking upc codes, consumer package good companies and fiscal years, i have to have things repeated to me like three times. practice makes perfect. i'm patient. i hope others are too. with me. i'll move up soon. soon. soon. get better.

[self confidence] how about that. presence or lack of, can always be seen. gotta keep it up and moving - never ceasing. can't let other knock you [me] down. no reason to. i'm a searcher, i'm a fighter and a lover as much as the next person. driving next to me, walking in westwood, in my yoga studio. i get energy from you. thanks for that. help me keep mine and i'll help you keep yours too. like faith.

will not allow [myself] to run dry. it's a new month, soon. a new year. how exciting. renewal of the pipeline. new beginning. 2008. hlywd here we come. monthly vacations, intended fun days. interruptions are always welcomed. bring it.