and i digress...

...when we put conditions on God's love for ourselves, we start putting conditions on our love for others... - homily tonight.

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"canker sores appear to be brought on by many types of stress -- either emotional, physical or chemical."

...i have four of them right now. deliciously painful. i blame the fact that i care too much. i blame the fact that i get anxiety way too easily. thank God for kanka.
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i am thankful that each day is a new one and that i live in a home sweet home. it's all about perspective. i choose to be happy this week. i'm excited for friday. i almost started crying in church today. one of my friends said i hit my breaking point, and that's when all the tears came down on friday. it had to happen. thank God for my boss' executive decision that i go outside and let it all out...i'm not throwing in the towel - i'm still going, and now i gotta deal with what i got. i recall my campus minister telling me to be gentle with myself. i remember he saying that to me, in the context of when i was dealing with a painful, painful breakup with a boy i thought would be the one for me. friday was a bad bad day. of course it started in the morning. it just went down.

i am hurt that i was lied to.friday. - maybe not directly to, but quite possibly indirectly to. i won't return some phone calls, but i will return yours. i need to stop, and gp reminded me that i don't have time...to babysit, to dwell - maybe that's because i could care less at this point. but when he said he wasn't gonna come over anymore, of course i was hurt - and of course my heart had totally understood what happened. it was just another sign that it was time to move on and keep moving. the sore got deeper. if he really cared, he would call. accept that it is what it is and the story is over.

things are just so much more different now. nothing seems to be doing it for me right now - there's just so much to look forward to though...cause at the end of the day - though it's coupons, and general advertising...life is beautiful. and so are the colors in my room. :)