timetoturnautopilot.....OFF.

it's what you feel after a long not even week. it's the mind racing - it's the caffeine making itself known, it's the overachiever mind status, it's the yucky feeling in your stomach, it's what brings me to my pajamas at 10pm. the recent transition at work has left me so tired, and worn out, and thank goodness for the weekend. a little too much, a little too fast, but i'm kinda sorta almost there getting the hang of it. unfortunately i think my week's worth of work coupled with the weekend of hanging out with testosterone and their desire for beer has brought me to my pajamas at 10pm. unfortunately the past few weeks have also led to a crazy schedule for myself. one that affects the times that i can talk with my friends, catch up, and fill them in. it doesnt help that they live on the east coast, 3 hours ahead. being teachers they don't exactly stay up all night. and then you get the hearing through the grapevine, and then you end up not having a peaceful time at yoga this morning. and then you think about how tired you are. and then you get sad that you can no longer office communicate as frequently with your best friend who measures dog food coupons, who sits maybe 20 steps away from you. you somehow make time for it all. your body catches up to you soon enough, and before you know it, it's memorial day weekend. i don't want to feel sick to my stomach anymore. anxiety, go away. at the end of the day, it's just coupons.