ryan seacrest looks better every year

and with a blink of an eye, it was finally time to step away from it all. thank God. if it came any later, i might not have survived. i'm sorry for leaving you like this, CC. but like i said, i'll make it big out there and i'll send you money...and a husband. pray for me.

i've definitely pushed myself to the limit. apparently, i still haven't reached my threshold for giving up, but i feel like i'm getting very close. it's just a matter of time. and i thought...everyone has gone through it at one point or another & survived. what makes me think that i can't do the same? what is it that's holding me back? am i making it out to be something that it isnt? is the work of art nothing but a 50 cent postcard? but that's not the million dollar question. interestingly enough, it has nothing to do with you. it's all about me. why am i still here? affirmation is needed when there's nothing but contradiction. that's obvious.

i'm sure that made no sense, but it made perfect sense to me.

so i've fallen in love...

if you look anything like john...or go by 'uncle jesse'...call me.

before it turns 10, i'm betting all my money on david cook.

i'm off. you will be missed.